Thursday, June 26, 2008

Empty Emotion

You know what is weird, now that I have graduated.. I feel unoccupied. I don't see my groupmates anymore, come back to the apartment to see my room tidy unlike the past week scattered with luggages, Mummy and Fats. Boss and Pisa are out and about with their parents, Turkish and I are taking a breather (he works anyways) so yeahhh, that leaves me pretty alone to myself.

I need to start packing. I need to get some souvenirs. I need to be in touch with friends whom I havent heard from nor contacted. There's a whole list of stuff I could do but first, I need to clear my sleep debt first. I havent gotten enough sleep since ZONA Club. Then my family came, St.Petersburg followed by graduation and earlier I managed to drop dead from 2-9pm. More, more, more!!

Tomorrow I'll go to the Dean's Office for some errands, inquiry etc. I'm considering to stay here for Ordinatura. That's the continuation to specialise, I'm thinking of Dermatology. It takes 2-3 years and chances are high for me to stay. I don't know, I don't feel like discussing it in the open because it is not common (actually never) for a Malaysian. I would be the 1st Malaysian in 10 years to specialise in Russia. Sounds heavy. Well, there's always a pioneer so why not me? ;)

It could be a shock to many but I really don't see why not. I mean, it's all great and dandy to return home, serve the government and stuff.. that's what everybody does anyways. For me, Malaysia isnt the only way and I aim to make a life abroad. I like my life in Russia. Sure, all my batchmates are headed home, I'll be alone here blah, blah, blah but I dont agree that is a reason to jump into the bandwagon. I don't expect anyone to understand my decision nor do I care judgment of my step. I'll just have to see what rolls from here.

Christabel and Quek came up with an idea of a Scrapbook. Excellent idea. Everyone was requested to submit a questionnaire and pictures taken over the years. I was one of the firsts to email everything LOL I am a sucker for these things. They are priceless as far as I'm concern. My answers to the questionnaire were brief, I wish I could have written 3-pages long of words and make it as personal as possible but it's too late to change it. I was too excited :P

This is the one song I've always wanted to sing at the end of my studies. I missed it when SSM days finished, now I've gotten my Medical degree and yet, never had the chance to do it. When Christabel proposed that each group make a video, I wanted to suggest we do an MTV clip of it but there was not enough time. So here you go.. (the clip's high school but the lyrics apply)

So we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now
'Cause you don't have another day
'Cause we're moving on and can't slow it down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
I keep on thinking of the night in June
I didn't know much of love but it came too soon
And there was me and you when we got real blue
We'd stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd got so excited and get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels...

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever,
We will still be friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything what we learned in school
Still be trying to break every single rule?
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep - keep thinking that its not goodbye
Keep on thinking its our time to fly
And this is how it feels...

Repeat Chorus:

La la la la la la la...
(We will still be friends forever)

We think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us around
Will these memories fade when I leave this town?
I keep - keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's our time to fly

Repeat Chorus (3x)


Hannan said...

U go girl!
if I have the chance to do it, I would
unfortunately, i have no option but to go back n serve our beloved malaysian.
:) - u have my backing for the ordinatura thingy! someone need to start doing it!

Gorgeous Ol' Eve. Prefers Vanilla To Chocolate. You? said...

You think I should? LOL Thanks Hannan, your support cleared part of my clouds. I really appreciate it :)

wicrap said...

do la, do la, least when i go moscow next year, i have someone to find/parasite

Gorgeous Ol' Eve. Prefers Vanilla To Chocolate. You? said...

Hahahaha I thought you're coming to Moscow on 1st July? Call me okay!